Family, visiting, sharing...

It was good to share a sunny afternoon with family, even with the unforgiving presense of an unwanted disease. (I suppose all diseases are unwanted, aren't they?) Neal has lost a great deal of weight, he is tired, and constantly chilled. But I have to admit, he looked better than I expected him to look. I hadn't seen him since Thanksgiving; he looked good then, but I suspect that he already wasn't feeling well. While the chemotherapy seems to be helping some of his symptoms, it is also causing others. I suppose I wish we were living in a fantasy world. I wish there was a way to target and kill the cancer cells without affecting the rest of the body...

In spite of his his exhaustion and his very quiet voice, he still has the capacity to laugh. It was good to spend time with him. I still wish I could find a way to package up hope and good wishes into a healing bundle.

Hoping and sending healing thoughts...